MIRROR, MIRROR

Make me thin,
Make me tall
Change everything, leave nothing at all
Alter my face and my desires
Fill my soul with their kind of fires
So I can fit their mold for me
So I can be what they want me to be
Sticks and stones will break my bones
And names have stolen my heart
Mirror, mirror
Help me out.

WINGS OF INSECURITIES

A thousand times
I ask you
Do you even care for me?
And everytime
You understand
You always make me see
On wings of insecurities
My heart has some how flown
Into your strong
And open hands
Though I
Could not have known

THEY SAY

If I only knew who I really was
Then maybe you'd find that I could give something to you They say that if you don't love yourself
And they say you will not ever truly love others
Sometimes I'm apologizing for everything I know
And then I have to ask you
If I could give something to you
They say that if you don't love yourself
And they say you will not ever truly love others
We all have hurt but it's no way out
Your mind is your own,
Your heart will follow,
Trust in your soul and smile at the pain,
And no one will know your hurt inside,
Life's just a ride,
So be strong,
They say that if you don't love yourself
And they say you will not ever truly love others.
What do they know.

GIVING IN

Rarely do I do it
But I did it
I smiled today
It kinda felt weird at first
But the first signs of love are showing
I remember the last man
I opened myself to him too quickly
He realized he didn't love me
But you...
You are different
You look at me like I am amazing
You never get bored with me
Even though we have been friends for years
You look at me like I am a miracle
I love when you look at me
I could get lost in you a thousand times a day
I miss your hands on my face
I can't wait to see you again
You are my eternity

ESSENTIAL

The memory shakes me
And I put my delicate picture together
Please do not ask me to leave you behind
Or to drive you away
Like a repulsive shadow
You can never say
A gorgeous diamond is an ugly rock
A dream is a delirious vision
You are always the friend
That I place above the sun
A true essential to my life

THE MASK

Hatred and Fear
Is all
I'm destined to feel
Shame is all
I understand
And when I stare
In the mirror
All I see is a mask
If I look closely,
I can see
The evil behind
Loneliness and heartache
Is all I know
I don't deserve love and friends
Behind my smiling mask
"Whore, Bitch!"
My demons yell at me
Everything is fake,
Nothing makes sense
My soul is
Numb and deserted,
I want to die.